Go Orbit Something.

All day and this evening I have worked.  I have waited and I have paced in circles and I have done menial assignments and then I have paced some more in circles; always imperfect circles.  I listen intently to conversations of coworkers and I watch the local news at 6 AM and then at 5 PM.  It is not compelling, and I pace some more.

I check my e-mail, I brush my teeth, I check my e-mail, I inspect my fire apparatus, I check my e-mail, I call someone at random and for no justifiable reason, I fill in my planning calendar which is always blank because I am not disciplined at filling it in, I check my e-mail, I browse forums and learn how to properly cut down medium-girth trees with a chainsaw and then in the middle of my learning I check my e-mail.

I listen to conversations about local run-off elections and I place my ear to the ground to hear the rumblings of the latest metro Atlanta fire department rumor mill and then I lift myself from the ground and I listen, I stay quiet, I check my e-mail, and it is all pacing in circles.  I am at work pacing, I am pacing mentally, my heart paces in circles too.

I want to respond to a call that will challenge me; that will bring out the best in my crew as well.  One worth writing to you about.

I want you to e-mail me so I can stop checking my e-mail so I can stop pacing in circles and finally walk in a justifiable direction.

With love,

Your Moon.

~ by dupu on August 6, 2008.